First of all, my view is blocked most of the time. I cannot see beyond the person directly in front of me. Normally, even if I were not taller than the person in front of me, I could still see a lot, from the big gaps between their heads. Now I am staring at people’s mid-sections, which are much broader, effectively blocking out the whole world.
I found myself staring at people’s mid-sections: their bellies, lower back, and bottoms - involuntarily. I have no choice because these are the parts of their bodies at my eye level. I am much more aware of the size (usually quite big) of these body parts. I am also much more aware of the bags that people carry, and the way they carry them - big, small, expensive looking (or not), on right or left shoulder, across their backs, in their hands, on their arms, etc.
It is hard to see their faces. Normally I wold be much more aware of who they are, and how they look, because I would be looking at their faces. Now I have to make an effort to look up to see their faces. And it can be quite tiring to look up - the closer they are to me, the more tiring it is.
It is, of course, much harder to move around. Even when I can push my own wheelchair, it is so much harder, it takes much longer to move even a short distance, you cannot go up or down a curb, you cannot easily pass something walking slowly in front of you, …
It is hard not to feel a little intimated. and perhaps even a little inferior, when you are shorter, cannot see people’s faces, when your view is always blocked, … The world looks so much gloomier from the wheelchair.
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Wish you to be recovered soon, and see the whole view as before.
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